I cannot be good until you say it

Intricately weaving Quranic verse with the hip-hop soundtrack of her childhood, Sanah Ahsan's poems form a raw and honest self-portrait, an exhilarating exploration of intergenerational trauma, whiteness, masculinity, grief, shame and self-compassion. In these pages, belief and unbelief, goodness and badness, the material and the spiritual are intertwined, reclaiming queer love and desire as holy.